What is normal, anyway?
It was back to real life today as the holiday is over and everyone is well. I wasn't feeling overly excited about the prospect of going back to my rather full regular schedule. We did an abbreviated version of school this morning to ease all of ourselves into it. Tomorrow we'll try to manage the whole thing. Riding lessons and horse classes filled the afternoon, and I have a meal plan and a grocery list ready for tomorrow. I keep telling myself I can do all this because I admit to having vague feelings of panic about it all after so many weeks off. I kind of liked having significantly less on my schedule. A lot. Probably everything would feel a lot easier if R. was functioning well. We are on over a week of complete disregulation. Thankfully the medicine we have makes a difference at night, though she has been waking up with nightmares every single morning between 5 and 6 am. Just enough before the alarm to make it a little difficult to go back to sleep. During the day, it is a