Some days
I know some of you who read this blog are adoptive parents and there are others who are considering it. Since I'm firmly of the belief it's always better to tell the truth, here's a little truth for you.
Some days are hard.
Some days you think that there is never going to be any progress. Or if you had been seeing progress it can feel as though it disappears in the blink of an eye. Some days you feel as though the hurt is too deep and there is nothing you can do.
Some days you do worry for your other children and wonder what you have done. All the what ifs... that you thought you had put away begin to resurface.
Some days all you can do is cling to God. You may not feel as though He is close by. In fact at the moment when life goes haywire (again) you'd be happy to feel as though God is in the same state much less the same house.
Some days you have to remind yourself you've been here before. That you can't trust your feelings because you've learned that God was with you all along... even if you didn't feel like it. You have to think back a long time ago and remind yourself that you are making progress. Very slowly.
Some days you just have to throw yourself at God's feet and say, "OK, do something with this. It's messy and yucky and I can't possibly think how You can make anything good come out of it."
Some days you have to stop carrying the load yourself and let God carry it for you. And some days you just have to praise Him because He can carry the load. He can make beauty from ashes. He can heal the hurt.
He can. And you don't have to.
Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Some days are hard.
Some days you think that there is never going to be any progress. Or if you had been seeing progress it can feel as though it disappears in the blink of an eye. Some days you feel as though the hurt is too deep and there is nothing you can do.
Some days you do worry for your other children and wonder what you have done. All the what ifs... that you thought you had put away begin to resurface.
Some days all you can do is cling to God. You may not feel as though He is close by. In fact at the moment when life goes haywire (again) you'd be happy to feel as though God is in the same state much less the same house.
Some days you have to remind yourself you've been here before. That you can't trust your feelings because you've learned that God was with you all along... even if you didn't feel like it. You have to think back a long time ago and remind yourself that you are making progress. Very slowly.
Some days you just have to throw yourself at God's feet and say, "OK, do something with this. It's messy and yucky and I can't possibly think how You can make anything good come out of it."
Some days you have to stop carrying the load yourself and let God carry it for you. And some days you just have to praise Him because He can carry the load. He can make beauty from ashes. He can heal the hurt.
He can. And you don't have to.
Blessed be the name of the Lord.
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