Some things are hard
I was going to take some time and write out how I go about planning unit studies, but that will have to wait for another day. Instead, today I have been taking care of my children. H. has her new glasses and so far she is happily wearing them. I will have more to report on that front after she has used them a little bit.
I have also bitten the bullet and made an appointment for TM. I love my boy so much, but something is just not right. I want him to be happy and joyful instead of anxious and so easily upset. It is difficult for us to navigate his behaviors sometimes, but I imagine it is even harder for him to live with whatever is going on inside of him. I want to be able to help and I'm all out of ideas. I had no idea that making that phone call would be so difficult. I am just so sad about it all. Sad that I don't seem to be able to help him, sad over the time we've lost when perhaps I should have found him help sooner, sad that there are things in his past that have caused him so much pain. Just sad. It has completely caught me off guard.
And I know this is not true, but there is a small part of me that feels like a failure. On some gut level I feel as though I have failed my son. I want to make everything all better for him and I can't. Parenting is hard.
I have also bitten the bullet and made an appointment for TM. I love my boy so much, but something is just not right. I want him to be happy and joyful instead of anxious and so easily upset. It is difficult for us to navigate his behaviors sometimes, but I imagine it is even harder for him to live with whatever is going on inside of him. I want to be able to help and I'm all out of ideas. I had no idea that making that phone call would be so difficult. I am just so sad about it all. Sad that I don't seem to be able to help him, sad over the time we've lost when perhaps I should have found him help sooner, sad that there are things in his past that have caused him so much pain. Just sad. It has completely caught me off guard.
And I know this is not true, but there is a small part of me that feels like a failure. On some gut level I feel as though I have failed my son. I want to make everything all better for him and I can't. Parenting is hard.
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I also wanted to mention that working on a life book with TM might be something that could help him better process his past if you haven't done one already. I would be happy to email you an example of one if you ever need one.
Praying God leads you to whatever will most help TM. Only God knows what that is and so don't forget that it is more His job to help TM than your job since from the sounds of it, you have done everything you could do using your own intellect. By the way, this advice is easy to give but very hard for me to follow in my own life. I tend to also feel the whole weight of responsibility for healing my children. I know this is unhealthy but it is hard to change when I am a person who likes to fix things and is often pretty good at it. Sending prayers your way.
"I don't mind sharing her information at all - we really like her....she has a very upbeat, accepting, loving way with working with ***. She is a Christian, though doesn't talk about that or bring it up a lot, but it is a part of who she is. I don't know how she feels about home schooling, but don't think she would pressure someone either way. She did say that she thought the structure and routine (and predictability) of school is good for "kids like ***" but that doesn't mean she wouldn't support another avenue. Anyway, here's her info:
Kay Holler
773-583-3641 Ext. 1
773-338-5895
kayholler@hotmail.com
fax: 773-381-1450
3420 W. Foster, Store A"
buzzards2 at gmail.com
There's a big difference between the loving support that only a family can provide, and the therapeutic support that only a neutral-but-caring outsider can offer. They can't replace each other, but they can complement each other very well.