Yes, I am. I don't really feel older, but every so often, I have one of those moments where reality hits. Take yesterday. I was doing a bunch of adoption paperwork (again), and looking to see what passport size photos I had and how many more I needed. For some reason I had one set of myself from the beginning of 2011 and one taken from much later in the year. Oh my goodness. I think the year was harder on me than I imagined. Comparing the two pictures, I seem to have aged more than 10 or 11 months. It looked more like 4 or 5 years. It may sound as though I'm fishing for compliments, but really, I'm not. I was just shocked at the difference in the two pictures. (I'm justifying it by saying I must have had several nights of poor sleep to explain the second picture away. Don't dissolution me.) It wasn't until that moment that I fully realized how anxious I have been about this adoption. I knew I felt a little stressed about it, but until I saw it written there all over my face, I hadn't realized the pervasiveness of it. I am also a little more aware of its weight now because of the relief I feel as we get closer and closer to actually travelling. Being at the point of just waiting for our travel approval feels glorious. I am so ready for this adoption to be completed and to have H. in our arms.
So, tell me, do you think relief can reverse the aging process?