Happy Birthday, TM!
The other day when he was sitting on my lap I was realizing how big he has gotten. He hangs off in all directions and has lost that little-boy-look he used to have. I was suddenly struck with how much I have missed of him. Not only did I miss his baby and toddler years, I missed his preschool years as well. I couldn't appreciate his small little boy-ness as both he and I deserved because we were fighting so hard to learn to love each other. I know there is nothing I could have changed about those first months and years we had together, but I grieve their loss.
Happy Birthday, TM! I love you.